Why I Can't Wait to Move Out

Imagine hearing day after day how poor your family is and how useless you are because you’re still ‘only’ going to school and don’t have a job. Ever since your 14th birthday. On top of that your mum is a horrible control freak.

5 years later you have graduated, passed your driving licence, started with your studies and are doing quite well in most subjects. You rarely meet with friends because you just don’t have any. You don’t drink alcohol, you don’t smoke, but your mum still won’t let you leave the house without you telling her exactly why you are leaving the house, for how long you will be gone, with who you’re going to meet and what you are going to do. If you tell her anything that’s really going on in your life she’s making fun of you and immediately telling everybody. Because you have debts (~ 2,500€) and want to go abroad after you graduate you’ve started looking for a side line. And found a place where they would hire you.

Because your mum has (apart from one or two) all the documents you need in order to be hired you go and tell her.

And she’s screaming at you. Because all those years she was ‘only joking’ when telling you to finally get a job. ‘Because of us you don’t have to work!’

Can you imagine how I felt? I was so angry that I started to cry. Yes, I’m one of those poor bastards who start crying when they’re really angry because the others are so goddamn stupid. Do they really think I want to work because of them?! Of course not! I want to work because I finally want to get rid of those debts that are chaining me on them. And if I don’t start earning something soon I will end up with debts in the amount of 7k when I graduate. I want to work because after I’ve paid back my debts I can start saving up for London, my biggest dream. I want to work because I can’t even buy one DVD a year because I don’t even have 5€. I want to work because I want to make my sister a decent present for her 18th birthday since my parents can’t afford it. I want to work because I want to be able to buy a reflex camera, books, roller skates and nice clothes. I want to work so I have less time to worry about everything. I want to work because I can’t bear spending more time than necessary with my parents.

Is it really that hard to understand?